I was a kid in the 80s and early 90s. This meant a lot of weird movies, from comedy to sci-fi to horror, contained pregnancy themes. It was also when a kid's friend's parents have their younger kids, and when you're more prone to attend gatherings of your parents and their friends for things like cookouts, volleyball parties and gatherings. When you're a kid in those days you're surrounded by women who seem to be normal everyday teen to 30-somethings one minute and panting, swollen, glowing mothers to be the next.
I happened to develop memory very early on in my life. And by early, I mean sometimes I remember being in the womb. At least, I think I do. I remember everything after being two, for absolute certain. I remember being in the 'safe zone', young enough where some mothers feel safe popping out a breast and nursing their babies, confident and secure that nobody with leering eyes are watching in the wrong way.
I guess I was precocious, but that stuff always struck me as attractive. I mean, the feeling was there. The breasts of a nursing woman and the body of a pregnant woman just struck my senses as being "Woman*1.5" Beautiful, soft, nice smelling, and attractive in a way a thinking feeling organism isn't meant to think about, just feel. The way you don't even have to think about the sexual characteristics of the sex you crave, but it's like the drive to drink or eat.
Before the internet I had to keep these feelings and thoughts totally and utterly hidden. They were so irregular, odd and strange I thought I was just mentally broken. As a man I thought how sexist and misogynistic I must've been, in an era where "be a wife and make babies" was the hallmark of a status quo supporting, oldschool Archie Bunker type that simply MUST have thought women were just for making babies, sandwiches and baby sandwiches. Because you can't logically decouple pregnancy fetishism from relationships with other human beings, right? clearly, if you're fantasizing this way, the thinking was, you'd expect to relate to the opposite sex that way. Which meant you were either a chauvinist, taught or natura
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